I'm back.

To all of your demise, I have returned to blogging. There are many new thoughts in my head that need to be put out there. Maybe then they will make some sort of sense.

Moving On

I made a new blog, "The goings on inside my head."

Its going to focus more on my thoughts and how contradicting they are.
...haha.

Update

Everything has been ...going? Nothing special. (Which is fine) Its so hot here though. over 90 F everyday :(

Graduate

Yeah. I finally did it. I graduated from High School.

Hell, I even spoke at graduation! :D

Next step: Life.

It certainly was a Halladay weekend!

Roy Halladay.

The Phillies traded away Cliff Lee, gave up 3 prospects, and gave this man a 4 year extension with the Phillies.
"This Man", had to live up to huge expectations.

And he has.

Cliff Lee?
No.
Roy Halladay.
He threw a perfect game on May 29th, 2010 against the Florida Marlins.
27 up, 27 down.

The 2nd in Phillies History, and the 20th in the MLB.
I watched the whole thing. It was probably the 5th inning, when I realized, ..."Holy Shit. He has a chance!"
He did it.

HALP. Help my friend~

Hey everyone! VisforVirus, a friend of mine on the BL, is attempting to make a game. She needs all the help she can get! I cannot help her sadly, I am nothing but a lonely videogamer xD

http://visforvirus.livejournal.com/2122.html

That is her information on the project.

Also, everything has been going very well. School is meh, but I only have 8 school days left!

I also have almost beaten FF XIII. Its been an awesome ride~

Month of May: Baseball season

Yo! My first post in ages lol.

My favorite baseball team is doing amazing, as predicted. The Philadelphia Phillies are in 1st place in the NL East.

My other favorite teams, The Boston Red Sox and the Minnesota Twins, are kicking major ass as well. (More the Twins but w/e :P)

I love everything about baseball. Its just so interesting! The stats, the history, the way its played. It all amazes me. My next game is the 23rd of May, when I'll see interleague play. BoSox @ Phillies. Should be an awesome series!

When I go to college this fall, I'll be planning to be a baseball sports therapist.
Not physical therapy, but mental. As in helping players overcome their anxiety or depression.

I've gone through it myself, so I'd love to help others. :D

Halo Reach Beta

Tomorrow the Halo Reach Beta starts up. So many people are probably hyped, but I'm not.

It's Halo, and its made from Bungie. What else is there to say?

All I want to do w/ Reach is to find loopholes in the storyline. (Yes, I read the books)

Everything in the game looks good, but if its anything like Halo 3, it'll be very meh to me.

Don't let me put anyone down about the game's hype, its just that I'd rather see what happened after the Halo 3 Legendary ending instead of a prequel. That's just me though.

WOO

Moods. Who needs them XD

Closed~

So in light of recent events, I'm closing my heart. No one will be able to get in...

In unrelated news, Roy Halladay suffered his first loss as a Phillie :'(

Oh well

Break Time

I've decided to take a break from the internet, and possibly videogaming. That's what I'm going with for now.

With all of this drama I've set upon myself, I need to fix it. Not much is going my way :/

Oh well. Having a broken heart doesn't help much either.

Red vs Red, and Blue vs Blue

Red vs Blue, which is a Machinma (sp?) is awesome. lol.

Its based off of Halo (1,2,3) but its hilarious. I've heard that its like South Park, but I just find it hilarious.

I find myself laughing at jokes that these guys have made over the years. Sooo funny.

Google Red vs. Blue. you wont regret it ;)

Current Events

I'm officially 18~ as of 4:59 pm today :)

I can go to jail now, yay~ xD
Turns out I'm back on my magazine o_o I don't understand. but okay lol.

Got over 150$ for my birthday. Along with a Roy Halladay Jersey! Thank. You. DAD!

Speaking of Roy Halladay, he pitched another complete game for the Phils yesterday, in a 2-0 Victory. He is 4-0 this year with an ERA of 0.82. (For you out there that don't know what ERA means, its Earned Runs Average, so the lower the better.) Anything below 1 means that that pitcher doesn't allow many runs to cross the plate.

I picked up Final Fantasy XIII for a bit today.. I am developing some Final Fantasy Boredom Syndrome (copyright Feenie)
Hopefully it won't last long ;)
I'm also developing Underlevelled Pokemon Syndrome. (Copyright Tony) My team is underlevelled, and I'm beginning to care less and less lol.

And here is a tidbit from one of my favorite Late-Night guys:

Late-nighter of the week

From Stephen Colbert, on the Goldman Sachs scandal:
"What's the problem? There's nothing illegal about selling customers a product designed to fail. The Chicago Cubs do it every year. Are they going to jail?"

Emotionally Tired.

I'm tired. Just... tired. Tired of all of the shit going on. Tired of fighting.
Here are the 3 things that are bothering me the most right now...

1. Lack of friends. I don't have any friends irl. None. I am the 'nice guy'. That's it. 
2. The fact that I think I am off of the school magazine. Nobody will assign me work. Now they are taking the software off of my computer. Bullshit.
3. What I said on the KS chat. I can't believe how STUPID I was. Why the hell would I say such things?! I don't think I can resurface there. 

There. That's it in a nutshell. Goddamn I need a vacation from myself. So bad.

Wha?

Why do I have such horrid mood swings? I hope they go away...

I've always wanted to have a family... be a father. But better then my own father.

I need to be stable first...

Phoenix

"There it is!" He exclaimed to his sister. "Wow! Its so beautiful!" she said. The Phoenix. The very symbol of rebirth.
The bird had given these siblings new lives. They had been killed in a dreadful accident. Too painful for words.

Their mother and father prayed every night after their children died. They prayed for The Phoenix to give them back the jewels in their life; Their children. The mother and father held each other, telling each other that their children would be returned to them. They meant the world to them. Days passed... Weeks moved... but the parents did not sway from their resolve.

Exactly one month had passed. They still didn't give in. They knew that their children would be reborn. They knew it. They had faith in it. Then, right before their evening prayer, they heard laughter. They knew whose laughter that was too. Every parent knows their children's laughter.
They ran outside, only to see two glowing orbs of light in the distance, and the Phoenix in the distance, all seeming to run towards these two adults. What felt like hours, took minutes. The children ran and ran, until they were in the embrace of their mother and father again. They didn't have any words to describe how thankful they were, but the bird wouldn't have heard them anyway. He had already left; to go to its nest and slowly die... into a new Phoenix.

The family eventually moved on and grew up, but never forgot how a bird, a fairytale to some, or even a myth; had saved them.

The brother and sister never questioned how they came back into this world, because they knew. They knew that they had been saved. Every afternoon, around dusk, you can find this family eating their dinner out on their lawn overlooking the valley. Ever so often, they'd see the Phoenix.
The myth, the fairytale, the bird.

Dedicated to Shannon. I love you.

Hope! (No. NO not the FF XIII character)

Hope is what I need, and is what I have.

I will finish out the school year. I will. :3

THE SCHOOL WILL BOW TO ME um. lol j/k

Still chugging through FF XIII though. Going well! :D

I love you. We will face this trial together. :3

Two Steps forward and Three Steps back

That's what it feels like anymore. I didn't go to school today. I have good days, then I have a complete 360 and have a bad day.

Why? Everyday is so different... So different.

I just want some consistency... Y'know?

More Then a Feeling~

I'm feeling so good. I'm like. High on life. :P

Yes Yes. I am blogging from school. Nobody needs to know. >.> <.<

I wish you the best of luck Feenie. Mah love (:

I've decided to drop Mass Effect 2 until I beat all of my Final Fantasies. (Or until I get bored lol)

That would be III, V, VI, VII, VIII, IX, XIII.....

FML xD
-Tony

(I'm thinkin' about putting an actual picture up here of me! *gasp*)

Friday April 9th

So far so good. Had my half day of school, and it went great.

I am a little worried about my lil' sister, but I think she'll be fine.

I'm also worried about a good friend of mine, but I'm sure she's safe. 

So. Yep.

Back to school...
Didn't go today. Funny isn't it? 3 months off and I'm still taking off lol.

Life is falling into place. That's the good news :)

Broken

I don't understand. I don't get it. It always blows up in my face. Its always my fault. I always cause the people I love pain. ...I still love you... even though I doubt -

I doubt I will be able to love another like I did you.
You didn't do anything. I did it. Just a reality check huh?

I love you.

You've done so much for me. I will stay. I will stay. I've said this so many times, and every time I say it again it gets more true.
I will be here as a shoulder to cry on, a lover to comfort, and a guy to smile with. Wherever and whenever.

I can't. I just can't.

I'm taking a break from the BL. I just... ugh :( Good bye everyone.
'till we meet again;
Tony.

Can't Wait ~

SO I'm going back to school on April 5th! I can't wait :)
btw, this message has been brought to you by Feenie, Tony, and Miss Wings. The Holy Trinity of Bad Ass.

Will it ever resume?

I've been thinking if I'll ever get on with my life. I set my return to school at the beginning of March. The most time I'm allowed is until the end of April. I wish I ... could make it back.
I don't know what to do with myself. I will not fail my senior year. That would disrespect my 11 years in school. Working hard. I will not give up... but yet I'm finding it hard not to.

The Backloggery ~

So I've decided to dedicate this entry to all of my friends on the Backloggery - You have all been so kind to me and helpful with my videogame endeavors.

All of my friends on the BL are important to me, but the two that stand out the most would be PhoenixSage and Soaring_Wings.

Soaring_Wings was my first friend that I really made on The BL a while ago. She had gotten a new game that was on the homepage and I loved that game. I commented, and we're fast friends.
She's very kind. I believe the game was Rondo of Swords btw xD

PhoenixSage... WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY ABOUT YOU? XD lawl j/k. I know what you mean to me. I met you through Soaring_wings, and don't disssss Golden Sun!
Haha I think that you'll get your job. With your attitude, I wouldn't mind going to your job and talking with you x3
You're always so upbeat. Always happy to talk to, and fun to talk to as well :3
Go Twinkies (:
So yes. These two are my supports on The BL. Give it up for them, and have a good day.
Phillies 2010 World Champs! That's my prediction :P
***One month till my goal of getting back to school***

Its my senior year. I need to get back.

Good I guess

Somehow my Great Grandmother is defying nature and is up and walking. Its truly amazing her willpower.

I wish I had similar willpower.

Tomorrow is V-day, and I saw my Valentine today <3 We talked for at least 2 hours in a local coffee house. It was one of the best experiences I've had in a long while.

I think I really like her :)

Snow snow everywhere. I have no clue when its going to let up. It'll probably still be here on my 18th birthday at this rate! e_e

R.I.P.

My Great Grandmother only has hours to live. Her 94th birthday would have been on Thursday. I'll miss her, but yet I feel relieved that she will have peace.